I won't lie, it's been a hard day. I thought maybe we could just ignore it and hope we wouldn't remember the date (I rarely know the date). But of course, that's not going to happen since it's the day after Eric's birthday. Last year I did all of Erin's favorite things on her birthday. But since we moved, I couldn't do those things unless I went back up to Omaha and we were just there yesterday. It just goes to show that service helps you forget yourself because July 17th this year, the boys and I went to volunteer at homeless shelter and that day was way easier than last year on that date. This year her birthday is much harder and that is probably because we didn't get out and do some service in her memory. I'll make a note of that for next year.
But despite the sadness, I am so grateful to have her for the 16 years we did have with her. I'm a different (better) person because of her.
I took Summer for a walk this morning and began to think how I wished Erin got to meet Nicole and Summer, the two new people in our lives. Haha. I just called Summer a person. That's how much I love her! I thought about how much she would have loved both of them. But the Spirit quietly whispered to me that I don't need to wish that because Erin does know them. She is just on the other side of the veil and the veil is quite thin. I know without a doubt that Erin is with us much more than we realize. For that knowledge, I am so grateful.
I love you Erin Lou and miss you every single day.
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